Umbrellas

Dear You,
You can't do this alone, and you shouldn't.
You know you're falling further and further away from the person you were and want to be.
If you stand here by yourself the storm will only get worse. There's no shame in asking someone for an umbrella, or even to hold that umbrella for you.
God is always there, even when you think he's not. He is always by your side, holding your umbrella until the sun comes out again. And if you need more than one umbrella, there's a good handful of people in your life who can help keep the rain from falling on your head.
So stop pretending you're so strong. Everyone is vulnerable and that's ok. This isn't some Lifetime movie. This is your life. Take it seriously and live it the way it was meant to be lived.
You were meant to smile, not cry yourself to sleep. You were meant to laugh, not question the validity of yourself. You were meant to touch other people's lives, why is it so hard to convince yourself of that? You were meant to be bold in dark places. This is your chance to be bold.
Remember...
Let other people in. Pushing them away will only make it rain harder.
Strangers give excellent perspectives.
You're family isn't perfect, but that's the perfect thing about them. You don't choose your family, God does, so you know they're in your life for a reason. Hold on to that when you're feeling the worst.
You are loved. Even in the darkest corners of your life. You are loved. And you are meant to love in return.
Love,
Me